It is not every day that one finds himself living a dream that turns into a nightmare. I knew heading into the show that this was going to be the hardest weight cut of my career. As Miesha said it would have been pathetic to not try, and giving it my all is exactly what I did, I went for it, risked it all and that decision ended one dream.
First of all, I would like to publicly apologize to the fighters who dreamed of being in my spot and could have made weight. I realize I was standing in your shoes, occupying your dream and I apologize. To the coaches, producers, Zuffa and everyone involved with TUF 18, I am sorry. I realize you all have so much riding on this show and opportunity and I can’t apologize enough for my mistakes.
I missed weight and have zero excuses about it. I didn’t adjust well enough to the situation I was put in and paid for that tremendously. A small piece of advice to those chasing your Ultimate Fighter dream, prepare your mind and body, the show is not a joke. You have 8-9 weeks and you will have to make a lot of weight cuts. If you are doing a show at 135, make sure you come in around 135.
I knew from the beginning it was going to be an extremely hard weight cut both mentally and physically and it would push me to my limits, but I would like everyone to put yourself in my shoes. If you had what was the chance of a lifetime in your MMA career and the opportunity to be a cast member on The Ultimate Fighter, wouldn’t you take a shot for your dream even if you knew there was a chance you’d have weight problems? I took a chance, paid for the mistake, and in the end I would do it over again, but with some major changes.
I have no hard feelings about the things said about me. I would have said stuff too had it not been my dream ending. I understand where they were coming from. All I can do is live and learn. When Dana White told me to walk out those doors with the cameras rolling, that was as real as it gets. My run on The Ultimate Fighter 18 had come to an end and my MMA career seemed to have hit a speed bump.
It was not long before I realized that when one dream ends, you make the shift to chase a new one. I just signed a multi-fight contract with World Series of Fighting. I will be making my WSoF debut in January when the WSoF heads to Texas. I have a lot to learn and a lot to make up for, I am only 22, and I hope the WSoF gives my career the springboard it needs.